A message from God

He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds – Psalm 147:3

During my devotional this morning I was praying about what I would write today.  I’ve got tons of stories to tell you, but I’m trusting God to lead me.  This week I have felt inspired to concentrate on the Psalms, so as I was reading Psalm 147, the above verse jumped out at me.  Immediately a memory came back to me about a phone call I had just over a year ago.  The phone call was from a lady from my old church and I could not remember the last time I had seen or spoken to her – it had been a while to say the least.  She said God had told her to call me and give me a Message:

He said He needed me to get into a church because there were some things He wanted to do in me, which He could only do within corporate worship.  He knew I was suffering and hurting and He wanted me to trust Him to heal me.  

On reflection, I now realise that when believers gather together in unity for corporate worship, the is an abundance of faith and this releases Gods flow of healing, breakthrough and miracles!

I hadn’t been to church in months and I had no intention of going anytime soon.  I was angry and hurting, disgusted with church and the so called “Christians.”  I felt downtrodden, let down, mistreated, unloved and discarded. I was sinking into a depression and I knew I needed help because I felt so lost and confused, so it was quite an ‘uh mmmm’ moment for me!!!  Could this really be a word from God?

I didn’t act on this immediately, I decided anything God needed to do or say He could do anywhere – He had just proved that anyway by getting a random woman to call me and give me a message out of the blue!

I didn’t trust anyone and I certainly was not going back to my old church where I was uncomfortable – no way!!  I was so vulnerable, wounded and scarred from a combination of events that had happened, so I just couldn’t bear to put myself through any more unnecessary torture.  No, if God wanted me in church, I wasn’t going anywhere until I was sure that I would be safe.

One of my closest and longest friends invited me to church with her one Sunday and I tagged along because I didn’t have anything else to do, so I thought why not!  It was a beautiful experience.  The worship was soothing and uplifting, it was medicine to my spirit and soul.  The message was real, full of wisdom and inspiring, I felt at ease there and I knew it was somewhere I would come again.  I also bumped into some long lost friends, which was a pleasant surprise, so overall I actually had a good time!  The church was advertising the start of an Alpha course which was due to commence in the New Year (at the time of my visit it was November 2010).  I remembered the message I had received from God from the lady who called, so I figured I would give it a try – what was the worst that could happen?  I was already at rock bottom anyway, so I guessed it wouldn’t do much more harm!

I left the church that day feeling quite hopeful; maybe God was right about me getting back into church?  I would find out…

…look out for part 2 coming soon.

O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me – Psalm 139:1

…God is so good, I asked Him to show me what to write in my blog today and as I got into His word, this blog pretty much wrote itself!  I had no intention of writing my blog this morning (I just wrote my last one a few hours ago in the early hours of the morning!)  In fact MY plan was to develop some of the songs I am working on for my music course I am doing – but God knows best:)  I’m off to get ready for a vocal coaching session- another story I’ll tell you about soon I’m sure:)!

By for now!

xxxx


Advertisements

Trust

See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands. 
 Always in my mind is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins” Isaiah 49:16

I have come to a place in my life where I simply and implicity trust God with my life – it wasn’t always like this!  For as long as I can remember, I have worked, strived, laboured, pushed and forced to make things happen in my life.  Now don’t get me wrong, there is a place for perseverance, persistence, dilligence etc to get where we need to go.  The difference, I realise now is going according to Gods will (that which is written in the bible, and the leading of God’s Holy Spirit in your individual life).  When you move when God says, in the direction that He leads, and the time when He says, in the confirmation of His YES and the strength of His Spirit and the covering of His blood, in the Name of His Son JESUS, nothing can stop you!  It is strategic, it is smooth, it is effortless.  Things just fall into place, people just turn up to help you like angels, doors which were tightly shut before just fly open, favour is granted where it was absent before –  it is just GOD!  This can only happen when you TRULY let go and let God.  Trust with all your heart, soul, mind and strength – free from worry, certain and convinced that God WILL do it, because His word says so!

So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wearBut seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well – matthew 6:31/33

…As I was writing this blog, I paused to take a call from a friend, I considered calling her back after I had completed writing, but I felt that I should take the call.  I am glad I did, as it is the best insert that I needed to finalise the blog.  So with my friends permission, I am so excited to share this with you.
I answered the call and my friend proceeded to extatically tell me that she had just received a HMRC tax rebate cheque for £925 from 3 years ago that she had not applied for and had no idea it was even coming!  The timing was perfect, because she has been separated from her Husband for 8 months (he is working in Zambia, she is in the UK).  Due to issues with business he did not have the money for his plane fare home and so was in need of £600 for the flight home and around £300 for other necesseties.  This cheque was an answer to prayers!  We had been speaking and praying about this dilemma since November, and my friend was becoming very low and defeated.  Over the last couple of days she had felt encouraged to really press into God with prayer and reading the word to build her faith.  She specified in prayer at the weekend that she needed the money by Tuesday (Tomorrow) and that it should not be a loan.  She found the cheque in the post this evening, which means the cheque will be deposited in the bank on TUESDAY, which is what she specified in prayer – PRAISE GOD, He is SO GOOD!  This cheque is the manifestation of my friends FAITH and TRUST in God to provide of her needs.

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see” Hebrews 11:1

With love, perfect in Jesus name

T Saf xx

Going deeper

What is prayer?

It is simply, talking to God from your heart about anything!  Yep, absolutely anything!  God knows it anyway; He is just waiting for you to get real and honest with yourself, so that He can help you where you are at.

So, recently I have been putting prayer and trusting God with more of me to the test.  My most recent break through has been getting a housemate for a house share.  I have been advertising for the past 6 months on 4 different websites, and by word of mouth and during this time not 1 person was interested!  A couple of weeks ago I asked a few friends to pray with me while we were on a 1 week fast and within 3 days someone contacted me through Christian Flat share, with interest in my house share.  Exactly to the day from the day we prayed and started the fast by the following week I had the viewing and found my housemate.  Now I don’t care what anyone says, there is no way that was a coincidence, it was a God-incidence.   All I know is that, i had been advertising that room for 6 MONTHS, and NOTHING!  A few days on a prayer fast and BAM – I get a housemate…that has God God God all over it!

I want to encourage anyone who wants to start praying, needs to start praying again, has a sense that God is calling them to go deeper with God or maybe you don’t know Him and you want to – TALK to Him, He is waiting.

“I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it” John 14:13-15…Amen xxx

Love

T Saf xx

My blog birth!

So…I’ve been thinking about doing this life journey blog for about 6 months now, but  have putting it off for various different reasons…blah blah…excuses, excuses!!

I figured that there is no time like the present, and even if no one reads this, at least I can say it is something I wanted to do and I gave it a shot…and if nothing else maybe my kids will find it and get a kick out of reading it when I am long gone lol – enjoy kids (my future kid that I will one day have lol!) mummy loves you!

Anyway, my reason for wanting to write this blog is because I love writing and sharing my interests, discoveries, insights etc with others and thought it would be great to combine the two together.

So…whoever you are, if you enjoy my blog(s) feel free to comment, get in touch, ‘like,’ ‘share,’ or whatever it is you decide to do best:)

By for now

T Saf xx