Growing in God like Jesus

And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and man. (Luke 2:52 NIV)

I read this passage of scripture this morning and reflected in my own experience of growth in God. The more time I spend in Gods presence, I genuinely feel His peace, love, wisdom, power and strength growing in me. I feel like I can do anything, I believe anything is possible and I expect favour and blessings in my life everyday. My past is behind me and gone, I am truly a new creation. The word of God shapes my beliefs and thoughts about myself, life and God. A life with God is my only option. Everything else before felt like stumbling in the dark, but now I can clearly see and every step with God as my guide gets brighter!

3 people within the last 7 days have commented about how happy I seem – 1 was my own sister! I/we have been through a traumatic 2 years after losing our mum, my whole life collapsed like the twin towers and I’ve felt like a dry desert, bitter and hopeless – i literally went half insain! …I believe the happiness they see in me is the peace of God they are sensing, they are right I AM HAPPY! For the first time in my life I feel free from the chains of sadness, I feel like I am switched on and walking the chosen path for my life – it is a beautiful and fulfilling experience and I feel so blessed to be living my dreams and knowing it is because I am abiding in Gods promises and trusting in Him.
I have had to make a lot of sacrifices and I honestly don’t know what’s happening sometimes from 1 week or month to the next, I am still believing for a steady income to cover my needs and more, but I know that God knows my needs and will be faithful to supply, so I’m not worried:)
…what’s the worst that can happen…really!??! Heaven is my eternal future so the future is bright!!!!

Grace and peace be yours in abundance through the knowledge of God and of Jesus our Lord. (2 Peter 1:2 NIV)

So blessed…x


Self Esteem

Today I’ve just started reading a book about self esteem and it’s got me thinking about my self esteem and the highs and lows I’ve experienced.  Its been an ongoing uphill battle at times, but I am thankful that I am on the up nowadays.  I think I can equate it to a combination of things (personal therapy, my counselling training, my faith in God, self acceptance etc).

I have come to the conclusion now that the foundation of my self

esteem comes from understanding and accepting myself

(which is an ongoing process) and most importantly…

…what I believe about myself.

Also in my profession as a counsellor and personal development trainer, I have witnessed personally from my client work how the thoughts and beliefs that run through ones mind (from past negative, difficult and painful experiences), can so powerfully overtake a person and literally have the power to break you.

However, when a person begins the journey into self awareness and starts to see the effects of their experiences in their thought life, with this insight they can choose to begin the process of replacing the old unhelpful beliefs with new life giving truthful beliefs – this is a process.  In my truthful and honest opinion, my experience has shown me that only God can supernaturally change a person, restore and heal the deep hurts that life has bruised us with.  Then the word (Jesus/The Bible) continues the ongoing washing, healing and restoration process.


So, simply put again: in order to challenge and change your thoughts, beliefs, perceptions etc.  The mind must be challenged about the negative, old and unhelpful thoughts/beliefs and replaced/renewed with new positive, inspiring, empowering, life giving thoughts/beliefs etc.

I believe that only Gods word is the true inspiration and has the transforming power that we need to renew our minds and our lives to live peaceful, purposeful and fulfilled lives.

Life is a journey, an ongoing process and we are always learning…

BUT one must start their journey with a true and honest intention to seek answers to their quetions and solutions for their problems etc…and be willing to put the work in – THEN the exciting process of change, growth and development etc begins!

I have come to the stage in my journey that I fully, whole heartedly and completely rely solely on every word that God gives (either through the bible or spiritual revelation).

The word of God is my: strength, hope, inspiration, encouragement, comfort, wisdom, motivation, empowerment, guide.  It is the reflection I need in the areas of my life that needs growth, development and maturity.

I simply cannot function in this life without God and I NEED to spend as much time as I can in His presence (reading the word, meditating, reflecting, praying, worshipping with music, being in church and with like minded believers).

I have tried MANY things to manage and cope with life but honestly, nothing comes close to a true relationship, utter and complete dependence on God.
I have to be honest though, I do have my down days when I will think various negative thoughts like:

“What’s the point?” 

“Am I really getting anywhere?” 

“When will I see the answer to the prayers I’ve prayed long ago?”

……And the classic:

“Its not fair, why me?” or even “Why not me – when will it be my turn?”

But I realise that sometimes its just the enemy taunting me and trying to upset me, steal my joy, plant seeds of doubt etc, and other times its just me allowing the old thoughts and negative thoughts (based on past experiences) replay in my mind.  At these times, I may have a little sulk, shed some tears, take a rest and listen to some inspiring music, find something inspiring to read, pray and/or I’ll channel these thoughts and feelings into writing a song or journalling etc.  Every day and situation is different, so I just go with the flow of what is right for that moment.

However God is without a doubt my lifeline and I am learning to trust Him daily.

X x

WOW! God is awesome!

Someone broke into my house, turned on all the lights, went upstairs rummaged through my drawers and jewellery and then left!

I came home to all of my doors wide open at around 11.30pm…


This is a miracle!  There were so many little items that they could have picked up as they ran through the house like my iPod, SatNav, Laptops – but all remained untouched!  The only annoying thing is, I now have to fork out for a new pane of glass for my door and I’ll probably get a burgular alarm now, but I am so grateful that I am safe along with all of my belongings 🙂

God is amazing! Forever grateful for Gods love and protection – Praises!!! XXX

 Psalm 91:2,11, 14,15

This I declare about the LORD:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.

x x x

 The LORD says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.

x x x

For he will order his angels
to protect you wherever you go

x x x
When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.

x x x


Prayer works!

My friend EV and I have recently started praying together, and just keeping each other accountable in our lives.  I have a few girlfriends that I know I can pray with about things, and it feels so good to know they have my back.

I got a text today from EV updating me about her court hearing on Friday (God knows why she waited 3 days to tell me!!!)  Anyway,  there was some sort of misunderstanding about fine she had with her car, she had moved and wasn’t getting the letters about it, so the fine had escalated out of hand and had resulted in a summons.  We spoke in the morning before she went to court and we prayed together over the phone.

Here is what she sent today:

Hey girl just giving you an update and praise report…thank you so much for praying with me!  Before I got there the prosecutor asked me a couple questions and was like I’m gonna speak to the judge and came back and said were not going to proceed with ur case😃He also said it was my lucky day and smiled!  I went in and he repeated what he had just told me and the judge looked at me and smiled and said you can walk out of here with a clean licence take care. I didn’t have to say a word.. The two barristers either side of the judge, the clerk and the prosecutor smiled again as I walked out ! God is GOOD! No 6 points no £700.00 fine xxxx

Praise God!

This is no coincidence, how often do people get let off fines???!!?!?!

I’ll leave it to you to ponder…

but …

…As for me and my household, we will serve the LORD Joshua 24;15

Bless xx

Daily Devotions: Day 7 – Final Day

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. (1 John 4:9, 10 NIV)

Im in a giant love bubble and I never want it to burst!!!

Thank You Jesus! 🙂 ❤

Although its my final day of sharing my daily devotions on my blog, I will continue sharing as inspired on:

I’ts been a challenge to put myself out there and share my personal devotions with the world, but its its also been very rewarding.  It has been such an encouragement and inspiration to read my past weeks devotions and as I continue, I’m looking forward to reflecting over the others that I will write in a year, 2 years, 10 years!

I may share the odd one or two on my blog in the future though 🙂

Be blessed

Daily Devotions: Day 4

It’s amazing how you can read something one day, and then read it again and get a totally new, deeper meaning. I’ve heard this said many times, but I am really experiencing this today!20120207-214028.jpg

I am reading the Joseph Prince, ‘Destined to Reign’ devotional at the moment and I re-read yesterday’s devotional today.

I was really taken aback by what I had missed yesterday, but also glad for the new insight.
This jumped out at be, like – BAM!!!!

“The good news is not preached to tell you what is wrong with you, it is preached to tell you what is right with you, because of Jesus’ work at Calvary, inspite of what is wrong with you!”
– Joseph Prince

I love reading these devotionals. I feel such a relief, reassurance and acceptance from God. I feel so supported and loved, in the belief that God really DOES love me and is on my side and has nothing but good intentions for me:)


Daily Devotions: Day 1

Day 1 – 4/2/12
For I am not ashamed of this Good News about Christ. It is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes—the Jew first and also the Gentile. (Romans 1:16 NLT)

As I read the above scripture, these thoughts came to mind:

…Jesus is the tangible evidence of the almighty power and greatness of God and His pure ever deep, unchanging, unrelenting love undiluted sheer passionate love for all.
Jesus is His outward expression of love to us. The act of self denial and sacrifice for the His one true love – His children, made in His image. Like any loving parent, there is nothing that they wouldn’t do to preserve the life of their child – such is the Fathers love.

…I feel like I am only just scratching the surface of understanding Gods love. But what I have managed to ascertain is an overwhelming, gushing, flooding sensation which had me in tears earlier today.  As I reflected on how God has been hearing my prayers and faithfully answering my heartfelt prayers.

Very special!


Jesus, the beautiful exchange

For God in all his fullness was pleased to live in Christ, and through him God reconciled everything to Himself.
He made peace with everything in heaven and on earth by means of Christ’s blood on the cross. (Colossians 1:19, 20 NLT)

Such a beautiful story of undying love.
A love story of one doing everything within in their power just to get the other back with them again. Never to be lost again, but reunited for eternity! Celebrating forever!

Absolutely beautiful! Exquisite!

Jesus the vehicle of reconciliation to God, the beautiful exchange of love for another. God saw us as worthy enough to come a be brutally sacrificed and die for us, to give us the right of passage back to our Father. Restoring our broken relationship (caused by the fall of Adam and Eve) with our Heavenly Father!
Jesus, the answer for a troubled world.
Brokenness > wholeness,

despair > faith / hope and confidence,

loss > comfort and encouragement,

sickness > health,

mourning > joy,

emptiness > fulfilment,

lack > abundance ,

fear and insecurity > assurance/ certainty,

purposelessness > direction / purpose,

greed > generosity,

bitterness/ unforgiveness > forgiveness and restoration,

hate > love

… I could go on, but I think you get my drift!

We can all of have this and so much more, the decision is ours to accept Jesus as our path to freedom. Allowing ourselves to be renewed and restored to how it was supposed to be in the beginning.  Being in His presence, in relationship with God – is the key to a fulfilled life.

Christ is the visible image of the invisible God.  He existed before anything was created and is supreme over all creation, (Colossians 1:15 NLT)

Not religion > RELATIONSHIP

Be blessed xxx


Jesus, Grace, Love

But people are counted as righteous, not because of their work, but because of their faith in God who forgives sinners. (Romans 4:5 NLT)

The love of God is my freedom!!! I don’t have to strive, work, struggle, prove, force, pull, push, manipulate etc.
I finally have the revelation after 13 years of doing the above, that ‘works’ means nothing to God and is not the answer for completeness.
There is nothing we can do to earn or prove ourselves worthy.
Just knowing that because I have received Jesus sacrifice for me, I am set free from the judgement of sin and condemnation is a breath of fresh air. I first heard this message of Grace in 2008 in South Africa at the Rhema SA
Radical for Christ conference. I was there on tour singing with my church worship team, promoting our new album, but I was still secretly struggling with my relationship with God. I loved worshiping and singing, but I did not enjoy reading the bible, praying or spending much time with God. If I’m
honest it was a chore, I felt like it was all one way and God just seemed distant, silent and untraceable. No one wants to spend time with someone who just ignores them! I was not happy about my seemingly non existent relationship with God, I yearned to have a deep and meaningful relationship with God, but I just didn’t know how.

…I had some deep rooted issues from
the past which were a major hindrance to my relationship with God. My Christian counselling training and personal therapy were the key healing factors for me and as I reflect now,
I can see how God was strategically and beautifully weaving my process together and I realise how close He really was…anyway more about this in later blogs)…

Pastor Joseph Prince was teaching on grace (I would encourage anyone who is suffering with insecurities, sin, condemnation, low self esteem or just wanting to understand the message of Jesus and Gods love to read ‘Destined to Reign’ by Joseph Prince, it is very insightful, I had lots of light bulb moments and it totally changed my
Perspective of Christianity and how to relate to God. It has been a loooooong journey, with some major hiccups along the way. However I can honestly say today 3/2/12 that my security is in Jesus, my faith is in His perfection and promises of commitment and love.

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11 NLT)

What a relief!! I have God Almighty on my side. My job is to believe in His undying, unfailing love and to know that no matter what He has my back, He is working all things out for my good and things will always work out. It may not always happen the way I think it should, but each day I learn to trust more in Gods wisdom. This is not always easy, but as I read the bible more and more, it encourages me through my tough times.
It inspires me to keep going, it motivates me to push forward and keep trusting and keep believing that my best is yet to come.

All the best in Jesus name



See, I have written your name on the palms of my hands. 
 Always in my mind is a picture of Jerusalem’s walls in ruins” Isaiah 49:16

I have come to a place in my life where I simply and implicity trust God with my life – it wasn’t always like this!  For as long as I can remember, I have worked, strived, laboured, pushed and forced to make things happen in my life.  Now don’t get me wrong, there is a place for perseverance, persistence, dilligence etc to get where we need to go.  The difference, I realise now is going according to Gods will (that which is written in the bible, and the leading of God’s Holy Spirit in your individual life).  When you move when God says, in the direction that He leads, and the time when He says, in the confirmation of His YES and the strength of His Spirit and the covering of His blood, in the Name of His Son JESUS, nothing can stop you!  It is strategic, it is smooth, it is effortless.  Things just fall into place, people just turn up to help you like angels, doors which were tightly shut before just fly open, favour is granted where it was absent before –  it is just GOD!  This can only happen when you TRULY let go and let God.  Trust with all your heart, soul, mind and strength – free from worry, certain and convinced that God WILL do it, because His word says so!

So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wearBut seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well – matthew 6:31/33

…As I was writing this blog, I paused to take a call from a friend, I considered calling her back after I had completed writing, but I felt that I should take the call.  I am glad I did, as it is the best insert that I needed to finalise the blog.  So with my friends permission, I am so excited to share this with you.
I answered the call and my friend proceeded to extatically tell me that she had just received a HMRC tax rebate cheque for £925 from 3 years ago that she had not applied for and had no idea it was even coming!  The timing was perfect, because she has been separated from her Husband for 8 months (he is working in Zambia, she is in the UK).  Due to issues with business he did not have the money for his plane fare home and so was in need of £600 for the flight home and around £300 for other necesseties.  This cheque was an answer to prayers!  We had been speaking and praying about this dilemma since November, and my friend was becoming very low and defeated.  Over the last couple of days she had felt encouraged to really press into God with prayer and reading the word to build her faith.  She specified in prayer at the weekend that she needed the money by Tuesday (Tomorrow) and that it should not be a loan.  She found the cheque in the post this evening, which means the cheque will be deposited in the bank on TUESDAY, which is what she specified in prayer – PRAISE GOD, He is SO GOOD!  This cheque is the manifestation of my friends FAITH and TRUST in God to provide of her needs.

“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see” Hebrews 11:1

With love, perfect in Jesus name

T Saf xx