(Re-posted, due to accidental deleting!)
He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds – Psalm 147:3
During my devotional this morning I was praying about what I would write today.
I’ve got a million stories in my head to write, but I’m trusting God to lead me. This week I have felt inspired to concentrate on the Psalms, so as I was reading Psalm 147, the above verse jumped out at me. Immediately a memory came back to me about a phone call I had just over a year ago. The phone call was from a lady from my old church and I could not remember the last time I had seen or spoken to her – it had been a while to say the least. She said God had told her to call me And give me a Message.
He needed me to get into a church because there were some things He wanted to work out in me, but He needed me to be in a place of corporate worship.
On reflection I realise that there is power when believers come together! When 2 more are gathered in Jesus name, God is present and miracles can take place!
“For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them” – Matthew 18:19.
I hadn’t been to church in months and I had no intention of going anytime soon. I was angry and hurting, disgusted with church and people in it. I felt downtrodden, let down, mistreated, unloved and discarded. I sinking into a depression and I knew I needed something because I felt so lost and confused, so it was quite an ‘uh mmmm’ moment for me!!! Could this really be a word from God?
I didn’t act on this immediately, I decided anything God needed to do or say he could do anywhere – He had just proved that anyway by getting a random woman to call me and give me a message out of the blue!
I didn’t trust anyone and I certainly was not going back to my old church for more pain – no way!! I was so vulnerable, wounded and scarred from a combination of events there that I just couldn’t bear to put myself through any more unnecessary torture. No, if God wanted me in church, I wasn’t going anywhere until it sure that I would be safe.
One of my closest and longest friends invited me to church with her 1 Sunday and I tagged along because I didn’t have anything else to do, so I thought why not! It was a beautiful experience. The worship was soothing and uplifting, it was medicine to my spirit and soul. The message was uplifting and inspiring, I felt at ease there and I knew it was somewhere I would come again. I also bumped into some long lost friends, which was a pleasant surprise, so overall I actually had a good time! The church was advertising the start of an Alpha course in the New Year. I remembered the message I had received from God from that lady, so I figured I would give it a try – what was the worst that could happen? I was already at rock bottom anyway, so I guessed it wouldn’t do much more harm!
I left the church that day feeling quite hopeful; maybe God was right getting back into church? I would find out…look out for part 2 coming soon…
O LORD, you have examined my heart and know everything about me – Psalm 139:1
…God is so good, I asked Him to show me what to write in my blog today and as I got into His word, this blog pretty much wrote itself! I had no intention of writing my blog this morning (I just wrote my last one a few hours ago in the early hours of the morning!) In fact MY plan was to develop some of the songs I am working on for my music course I am doing – but God knows best:) I’m off to get ready for a vocal coaching session- another story ill tell you about soon I’m sure:)!
By for now!